Fear Of

I'm that awkward friend who doesn't say much during group conversations

I'm a wallflower camouflaged into the dull paint job

Not wanting to bloom

Not wanting to be myself

I have a fear

Fear of getting close to people

I can't get close emotionally

It takes a lot for me to open up

To be who I am

When others aren't around

The progression can come off as a regression

At times.

And that's just the way I function

So if you've gotten to know me as I truly am

Don't take that shit for granted

I am the way I am to a select few

Because it'll tear me up if I lost one of you

If one of you

Ever say...

"I don't want you in my life anymore."