pettiness can’t fix this

To you I was a self fulfilling prophecy

you spent every moment we were together waiting for me to break your heart

that way

when it finally happened

you wouldn‘t be surprised

my competitive soul burned

I wanted to be petty

prove you wrong

prove that I wouldn’t be the one to leave

to drown the sparks that struck between us

prove that I could love you

but your words were a burden

a doomed blessing to break your heart

Maybe I wasn’t strong enough to carry them

Maybe I was smart enough to let them go

but even that we had already lived too many moments unhappily together

I still felt like I was losing