Nothing Good Ever Comes From Looking Back

“I’m here"

But you're never just here

You're a million miles away through time and space

Never in the moment

But always claiming to be 'present'

You’re never just here

You're there

You’re everywhere you’re not supposed to be

You're not in arms reach

You're never here

Where I need you to be

You’re stuck in the past

Holding onto the tied together what ifs

And 'if only'

And I’m tired

Of being here

by myself

It gets lonely

Waiting on you to realize

that I'm not in the past

That nobody is in the past

but I'll stay here

waiting on you,

To wander and search

for something that

I know

and you know

truly

doesn't

exist.