Tell me a Story

Tell me a story he said

As I gazed into his eyes

About what, I asked

About yourself,

Tell me what hurts you,

I See the pain you hide inside.

I grimaced as I you said these words

For nothing prepared me to answer this.

I was young and in love.. or so I thought.

He was my best friend and my everything

But it soon ended in tragedy.

I trusted him with every fiber of my being

I let all my walls down FOR HIM.

He couldn't respect me and when I demanded some,

He went crawling to them.

But he didn't want to be lonely, so he settled for me

But on the side he settled for them when I didn't give in to his ways.

He stripped me of my pride and clothes.

Left black and blue scars on my heart,

And destroyed any trust I ever had.

I don't know what hurt more,

The things you did to me,

Or knowing you did it to them too.

You downed another glass of vodka

The way you always did

As I sat on the phone telling you everything I loved about you.

You blew another cloud of smoke from your lying mouth

As I whispered in the phone how much you meant everything to me.

And as you spit in her mouth, I told you how I'd thought you were perfect.

Turns out I was a liar just like you.

Only I lied to protect you and you lied to protect yourself.

I finally opened my eyes and took a deep breath

I looked into your eyes and spoke calmly,

"Not today"

You nodded in agreement.

Maybe that's why

Maybe that's why I had so much pain

So it would teach me to let go

And lead me to you.

My happiness.