Born Unto Lighting

Okay so,

I wrote one and then erased it

and then I wrote one and erased it, then another but erased it yet again.

My mind is everywhere, but nowhere all the same.

I tear up at little things because of memories I've missed, I laugh at things that others think are funny ....

I work hard and keep responsibilities in check. but now I sit here drunk.

I know, I usually stop at tipsy ...

I went out late tonight

just to breath in some fresh air,

escaping the lasso around my neck.

and when I looked up into the sky

there was only a few stars,

but the few stars I saw,

shined brighter than ever.

and in-between the bright stars,

were bolts of lightning.

and in that moment, I felt home.

Security, stability and peaceful memories ...

I cried out, looking past the clouds

and whispered to the lord until I could no longer whisper ..

I fell to my knees, in the middle of the open field. rain pouring down and the stars still shining bright, I cried a deep a cry .

I shook my head, and held it low,

I felt small and insignificant,

like the dirt worms make their homes.

but for some reason, I felt heard ...

only time will tell.

so I guess another night loss of sleep ...

"The moment viewed like a movie",

was my moment of born again ...