I do not believe in HIM

Know your worth!

Never accept second best !

Only accept what your worth!

But what if God, is treating me like a participation medal

What if he leaves my hopes and dreams laying on the dirty bathroom floor ?

How do I stand up for myself and my self worth then ?

What if when I pray he hits the skip button and makes the face kids make when they eat vegetables ?

What if he sees my tears and step over them like a dirty puddle in his way?

What if he sees my efforts and scoffs ?

I've been crying at the moon since I was eleven

hoping,

praying,

begging just for God to listen

He hasn't

And I give up.