I Hate Being Alone

Despite the fact that I wanted to be there, I hated music school.

I hated the practice. I hated the music. I hated the three 0-credit-hour classes I had to take for my major.

My classmates were charming enough, but I grew to hate them, too. I yearned to relate with them, but didn't know what to say. In my experience, conversation always started with someone else's introduction. And even then, half the time that person would never reach out to talk to me even if I reached out to them. Being at music school made me realize I'd never learned to properly socialize.

I hated my whole life.

I hated my whole life.I hated my whole life.I hated my whole life.I hated my whole life.

Looking back- I hate the fact that despite the crowds of people JUST like me, I felt alone.