cards

in kindergarten

you sat alone at lunch.

i felt bad

so i said hi.

and we were inseparable after that.

but we went

to different middle schools.

you said you were excited

to meet again in highschool

and i was too.

so when i saw you

on the first day of ninth grade,

sitting with other people at lunch,

i was proud of you.

so i said hi.

and you called me ugly

you called me desperate.

you texted me later

saying i misinterpreted your comment

you were just joking.

but you and i both know that's bullshit,

isn't it?

the truth is

you're embarrassed to

be my friend

in front of your new ones.

so that's all i am then?

you just used me

in elementary

to get popularity

'cause i was popular

and you were an outcast

you were my best friend

but was i yours?

i loved you

'cause you were awesome

guess you "loved" me

'cause i was popular

you used me to climb

the social status

but now you have them

you don't need me

i'm a threat to your

popularity.

so now you make up lies

to make them hate me.

and

even though

you've been

through hell with me

you're drunk

on jealousy.

friends aren't like playing cards

you trade and exchange

we aren't

money,

honey.

but you think

it's funny.

i wonder if they know

what a bitch you are.

that you'll leave them

when you find someone

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