you ruined me

I wanna run away from the nightmares he gave me

i wanna run from my past but it keeps catching up to me wondering what i'm supposed to do

Do I let you win and ruin me like you have for the past 6 years

Do I let the pain you gave me ruin my relationships

you ruined me you gave me PTSD

depression

anxiety

daddy issues

attachment issues

trust issues

you ruined me and i lost myself

you ruined my life and got away with it

I can't ever be okay because of you

your son died because of what you've done you made him feel guilty

when he died i lost a bit of myself he was my brother

you took away my happiness

you took away my love for myself

you made me blame myself

you ruined me and it's not fair

i wanna run away from the pain you caused me the pain i have to do day to day

you took my childhood from me

you ruined me and its not my fault its yours

you took so much from me

now i'm taking my life back

I ran away from you for years the pain for years

you make me so angry i wanna hit the wall and run

but now i'm done running

i'm taking my life back

I'm done letting you continue to ruin me

I will be in a good relationship

i will allow myself to be loved

i will start to love myself

i will gain motivation

i will force myself to do things even if i don't wanna get out of my bed

i'm gonna win not you

i'm still gonna feel that pain i'm still gonna want to run into a wall and disappear from a bit

but i wont make that my life

You ruined me for 11 years now i'm taking my life back

you can run into the wall now