Remembering You

Remembering you comes in waves

But hits heavy like a brick wall

You gave me panic attacks and labeled them "love"

You forced fear into every depth of my once so innocent mind

You took me for a fool and shoved false hopes down my throat

Choking me with words you could not keep

Bored was all you could be until one day, you left

And so went my sanity

I'd be lying if I said I was the same

After everything you did

Flashbacks of third degree abuse

Body shaking, mind racing, heart aching

Forever burning in the back of my mind

Your face was fading but your actions still burned

The burning was worse than the vodka you drowned yourself in

As you spit lies in my face

Remembering you was worse

Than drowning in your lies

Remembering you was gut wrenching

Remembering you was unbearable

Remembering you was...

Torture to the mind...