25 Things I Wish I could Tell You, but can’t...or won’t.

1. I'll always remember you. 

2. I'm terrified of having to speak at your funeral.

3. I still have your huge box of Legos.

4. I think you'd like to know that a Lego can withstand 950 pounds of pressure before beginning to misshape.

5. My hands feel like 950 pounds every time I hold one.

6. My heart is the misshapen Lego.

7. You are...were...such a young kid.

8. I loved you.

9. I hate Legos but for you'd I'd build Lego rockets to a Lego moon...or death star...and watch it crash.

10. I'd build it again and again.

11. I miss your sarcastic, not funny, humor. For 13 you had such an attitude.

12. Your twin is no longer a mirror image. For he can't look in a mirror. Everytime it's as if he sees a ghost.

13. I think he sees your ghost.

14. Every now and then I see him steal a look. Seeing your face in the pooling glass one more time. Smiling as if you two shared a joke.

15. Why the fuck did you have to go?

16. I always felt like a crappy sister.

17. I'm sorry.

18. I need you.

19. You're our missing Lego piece. I can't go on without seeing that dorky grin.

20. I'm terrified that this will happen. The doctor will come out of the hospital room. 

21. We all will know.

22. That a bright star burned out.

23. If it happens...I'll speak this poem at your funeral.

24. I'm a Lego piece. 

25. This moment is 1,000 pounds of pressure.