Crumble

So anxiety ran through me

Panic what’s happened

Lay down to take breaths, 4-1-5

What’s this underneath

Why did they all say goodbye?

I hit them up

The One is gone

Laid down to rest

Only two left

What did I do that you left?

I never mistreated you

I guess that’s at least

What I understood

Always people pleasing

Always trying to be good

You are good enough he said

Get out of your head

Your anxiety is really

What made it end

I know your intention

Was always to be good

Whether you believe it or not

I always understood

I guess being overwhelmed

Got the better of me

Two kids, jobs working three

I thought you could do more

It was never enough

Seems to me now

Like you did feel my love

I asked number two,

What did I do to you?

What made your heart

Flip a switch?

Cause I can’t ask Ian now

His soul is in heaven

The body a ditch

He says it sounds cliche

But it’s me not you

I need to get me together

After all I’ve been through

He said you give too much

Then it feels imbalanced

Cause you don’t get it back

And my heart cracked open

The light poured in just a crack

And I understood

You need to feel you’ve got it together

You need to feel you’re safe

That your world won’t crumble

If it doesn’t work

I finally get it now

From fear to tears

I broke down

Tears poured out

So much love

It was never me or you

That was not good enough