I’m not me anymore

I'm not me anymore. If I'm being honest I haven't been me for awhile, hell I'm not even sure who me is anymore, but it's getting worse everyday. The thing is no one notices which is both a great relief and a knife in my heart. No one notices that I am slowly slipping away, that I lose another piece of myself everyday, no one notices that I don't even recognize myself anymore. I put on a show to make it seem like I'm fine, go to work, school, family dinners and events just to make it seem, to give the illusion that I am okay. But I'm not and it hurts that no one notices. Maybe it's my fault for putting on this strong face in front of them but I don't know how to not do that and I will not let them watch me struggle. I will not let them watch my sink and crumble. I just wish someone would see past the show I put on.