An Apology to a Formerly Hopeful Person

I’m sorry.

But how was I

Supposed to know

That the pain never goes away?

You tried so hard

You lied so much

You cried in the

Arms of injustice

Had I known

That effort

Only works in vain

Had I known

The investments

Were futile-

We could have given up

Before it started

“Ignorance is Bliss”

They say

But bliss cannot be attained

In a cyclone of

False confidence

and

Contrived purpose

I never meant

To keep your hopes high

I never meant to

Covet that mysterious

phantom idealism

I never meant any of it

And while reaching

For the truth

Life up to now

Feels like a

Waste of time.

April 24th, 2023