Lost

My fingers drift through the water

Trailing little eddies and vortexes

The water is cold...dark

Like the fear inside me, that threatens to gurgle up

Overflow in hysterics, if I dwell on how I got here

Drifting on the infinite void of the ocean

What are you...?

This Freezing briny nothing

I roll over on my back

Hard wood and rope buoy me along

The clouds are far away...above

Vast cumulonimbus shoals

Kingdom of the G-ds

Haunting in their beauty

Their impossible size

Yet made of nothing

The home of my memories...and my dreams

My mouth is so dry...

I turn to touch my arm, embracing myself

Wincing in pain at an injury to my shoulder

I am partly glad, that I cannot see it's full extent...

The sun is setting now

The great rising clouds are tinted pink

Why are you there?...taunting me like that...

I see my father in those clouds

My mother too

They all seem to be waiting for me...

It just doesn't seem fair

I chuckle to myself

Another long night awaits me

Drifting over the black nothing

I'll do my best

To just...

Remember the clouds