Feel My Pain

The moonlight showed me

A different side of you,

And I gave you a spark.

In return,

I am presented with

Lead in my gut,

A knife in my back,

And burns on my heart.

But you decided that,

Somehow,

That wasn't enough,

So you lied

And added chains

That drag me into the darkness.

I am starving

And bleeding

And abused by strangers.

I can't stop it.

There are no handholds

On the slick walls of this

Pit you threw me in.

And now, you've run away,

Horrified that you

Destroyed the one person

You always wanted.

But as I lay in the filth,

Bleeding and wasting away,

I know that

You will spend

The rest of your life

Praying in secret

For forgiveness.

You watch

As I am rescued

And carefully

Glued back together

With love

From another man.

Lead in your gut

As he kisses me.

Knife in your back

As he marries me.

Burns on your heart

As I give him children.

But there will be

No chains from me

And no pit,

Because as I see you

Watching my happiness

From the other side of the fence,

I know that

Your happiness is found

In someone

You can never have.