10/13/21

What I wish I felt:

I walk into rooms, warrior, as if I know they will collapse when I leave.

As if they know this is one they cannot collapse on.

I look at my place in the world and see how I give to the greater good.

I wonder who is worthy to walk with me on my journey through life.

I know I am worthy of good things, good people, love.

And in my dreams the world greets me and shows all of the splendor there is:

a girl with big eyes and a hopeful heart.

What I actually feel right now:

I walk into rooms as if no trace of me will be there once I leave.

As if the walls will shrink towards this girl who doesn’t know she shines.

I look at my place in the world and only see what I take from its goodness.

I wonder if I will ever be worthy of someone to walk with me on my journey through life.

I know that I wonder whether I am capable of good things, of good people, of love.

And in my dreams there is a found love for myself that only sometimes comes to visit.