pain

Nobody knows what pain feels like until you hit rock bottom. Pain is when your lied to, cheated on, taken advantage of, wanting to disappear, to not want to get out of bed. I've felt too much pain. I'm at rock bottom, nobody listens to me, I try to cry out, but everyone is to busy to notice i'm in pain. My step-dad calls me a b**ch, yells at me and doesn't care if it reminds me of the past. I cry myself to sleep, I'm too depressed to get work done. I'm failing my classes. I'm so tired of trying to make someone proud of me, when nobody is. I try so much to be good enough for someone. I'm tired of feeling not good enough. No matter how much I cry, the pain still stays. No matter what I do, I still hate myself, I'm still in pain. Life is not easy. People f**ked up my life. When I didn't deserve it. I didn't deserve to be taken advantage of when i was a child. My nightmares won't go away and it's been years since he went to jail. I would do anything to just be happy again.