An absurd day

When i'm lost, I find myself leaning back

into comfort, into monotony, into reliable things

I read my small diary, scribbles cramped into pages

and I giggle at how stupid I sound

I look around when I'm lost

Where am I? Why am I here?

I call my mother on the phone, hearing comforting nonsense in the background

I smile at the reassurance of the physical world

I stare at a blank page, confused at my lack of thoughts

and I remember the day, the schedule, the ups and downs

the fact that I walked out dazed from a supermarket, 2 whole unpaid packets of food in my hand

and I wince at my human self with it's human errors

I pinch myself awake, yet I yawn again

Tears form on the corners of my eyes, struggling to not sleep

and in that moment, the day flashes by, slow and fast, musical and nutty

My head falls down and I wake up with a flash to everything vanishing

I'm found,

In my mistakes,

In my home,

In my errors,

and lastly, in my memories