Fear

I'm afraid.

Afraid of the darkness

Of the thoughts that keep me awake

The monsters that used to remain under my bed

Have found their own sick ways into my head.

Their screams and their intentions

Keep me up at night.

I tried for years, but I had to give up the fight.

I stopped trying to hold back my pain

My emotions

My sickness

Now they flow like a river

And I'm left without a raft.

It drowns me everyday

The sadness

My head is a scary place

I see the demons you fear and they laugh in my face

I'm used to the torture

They visit me every hour

Every minute

Every second

Have you ever been afraid to sleep?

Not me.

I'm afraid to wake up

Because what I live through every day

Scares me more than even your worst nightmare could