Trapped

Out of nowhere it starts,

That niggle in the back of your mind.

Have you forgotten something?

Left something behind?

Your hand starts to shake

An uncontrollable shiver,

Like ice down you spine

A never ending quiver.

You second guess yourself

You're sure you must be wrong

Convinced people are starring

They know you don't belong.

Breathe deep you tell yourself

Even though you know you can't

If only there was enough air

Another mantra to chant.

Uncomfortable in your skin

Nothing fits you right

Looking in the mirror

You loathe that unfamiliar sight.

Someone tries to help 

But you cringe away

Although inside

You beg them to stay.

Tears spill over

They silently fall and drop

You have no idea why 

And you just want them to stop.

Lost in a shadow,

Caught in spiral, a wormhole,

A never ending chasm

The constant fight to be NORMAL.

One day you feel stronger

A little better than before

Then something whispers in your ear

That hope cannot restore.

A vicious circle begins again

No matter how hard you reshape

Those thoughts inside your head

You never can escape.