Nothing Like You

I saw it in your eyes

The fear, the rage

How could you?

That’s all I could ask

I was six years old

And you almost left us

But I swore…

That I would never become anything like you

I stepped up and became the man of the house for that day

I stepped up and hurt you as much as you hurt her and her

I’m not afraid of you

I never was, and never will be

I made myself as hard as rock

Because you never wanted to be my rock

At only six years old, I protected both of them

Your actions got you what you deserved

During that time, you were nothing to me

Communication, respect, and loyalty

That lay the foundation of any type of relationship, you shattered all three

How was I supposed to trust you?

How was I supposed to forgive you?

But as time went on,

You learned, I learned to move past it all

I had this memory locked away, hidden in the inner caves of my episodic memory vault

Maybe that’s why I’m always straight up

And I can’t stand anyone lying

Maybe that’s why I hate it when people can’t communicate

And I’m always the one left trying

Trying with every ounce of energy I possess

Because I can’t stand when people close to me just leave me

Just like how your actions almost made you give up on your family, according to the six-year-old me