14 years a slave to

I lived my life raised to listen, however I've fought ever so fucking hard to do what I must to block them out and do what I want. I can count on my right hand with extra fingers to spare; the times I've ever actually listened to anyone other than myself. Those 3 times I have, have been disastrous.

I waited 14 years to materialize what I've known all along. I blamed a child for my foolish decisions. Out of cowardice I became a slave to what if's and what could be's until I looked myself in the heart and asked what I was so afraid of.

I took your invitation as my last opportunity and from that day on I lost my friend, the shield of my life, my security blanket. I lost cowardice and gained courage.