stronger

i've been wishing all these years

that i could be the homecoming queen-

pretty, perfect,

angelic, affluent

i want to be everything that she is

but what if she doesn't?

what if she longs for the day

when she can finally be herself

stop hiding all her feelings

in her broken home where nobody cares

what if all she wants is some real friends?

people who understand her,

who would be proud of her when she's at her highest,

but also during her lows?

maybe she just wants to have lows.

wants to feel human,

like the weight of the world has been lifted off her shoulders.

like she can breathe,

take off her tight dresses and high heels

and just relax.

what of she wants all the pressure

of eyes constantly being on her

to go away?

maybe she wants to reject all those guys that like who she is on the surface,

and find someone to give her heart to.

maybe she wants love.

love from her parents,

who don't even love each other anymore.

love from her friends

instead of just being together for popularity reasons.

love from the world

because she's herself, not because she's the skinniest, or the prettiest.

but mostly,

love from herself.

maybe she just desperately wants to love herself,

instead of feeling fake,

used, idolized, wanted.

maybe she just wants to be.

to live, to feel, and be free.

and here i am, wanting the life she so desperately wants to get rid of, to escape.

but even though i don't know her,

i love her.

i love the fact she puts on a brave face

even when it hurts,

when she doesn't want to.

she is stronger than all of us.