atoms scattered lost

wish that i could gather the atoms 

that vibrated your voice, 

your breath, 

its heat of warmth, 

its fragrance scent . . .

your molecules

. . . so long ago

wish that I could collect 

their dissipation, 

scattered so long ago

and hear, and smell

their essence of you . . .

so long ago

wish that I could see your image,  

it's frame in my mind's  eye

rewind an' replay 

each moment's movement 

of your touch . . .

your smile, 

your laugh,

your body . . .

so long ago

gone forever, 

your molecules' atoms scattered through all eternity, 

fallen settled scattered swirled

on the fabric of earth and space

inhaled, exhaled swept up and rippled

sieved an' strained through time before and after

ever moving, somewhere, 

your being, 

your mineral dust, 

elemental essence somewhere still

within my reach

your spirit, somewhere still

as i move through the ethereal 

of the knowledge that is you

i reach out with my spirit,  

my thoughts feeble centered on you

grasping with a desperate mind 

i listen pensively, 

perpetually attuned with spirit radar

eyes attuned, 

i see,

i hear through the veil 

separating you an' me, 

i sense your presence love

your benevolence,  

your cosmic compassion, 

wish that I could return

to those times, 

those bubbles in place 

the moments of magic 

where they occurred 

when they occurred

again imprinted upon the fabric 

of time and space 

moments that escaped my hold, 

slipped an' lost forever by my feeble grasp,

time flowed on and on . . . 

. . . and on 'til today

with me it's victim, 

it's puppet slave