My Regrets of Me

It's crazy how I'm thinking about you, & how I haven't moved on

I'm sad & depressed watching the news, looking to the side of me & your gone

And if your gonna be gone, I'd rather for you to be dead

Instead of me having to think about ways to get you back in my bed

They way that you got me feeling is tearing me to shreds

Tearing me apart

You took a razor blade that was super sharp

Took it to my heart

Im scared

Baby it's hard

To live like this, knowing that your alive, but your not alive in my arms

Wow, you not being here, is actually causing me harm

I um……I now know how you feel

Your feelings & your emotions are oh so very real

I feel ashamed

I'm thinking you made me feel like this, when I’m the one to blame

I complained,

If I wanted it to be different, then I should of caused the change

Instead of causing the pain

You was right to leave

But the fact that your gone……all that makes me want to do is grieve

Baby I can still feel your presence, I can still feel your love in the atmosphere

All I could do now is think about every second, I held you dear

I held you close, we laid in bed together

I still see your glow, I might not see you, but I'll see memories of you forever

I could've did better,

But that could've is what I should've happened, but however

As I get through each day, of you not being here

I replay in my mind, of you wiping your tears

I said I was sorry, but that wasn't something you wanted to hear

……….you got me in tears, that razor blade feels like a spear

But it was all my fault

When I had you, I was winning, now that your gone, I took a loss

I see the sun shining, a beautiful yellow, & orange beams

I had a beautiful dream

That we had a family, yes, created wonderful offspring

We all made each other smile, we all made each other feel complete

I just wish that now, I could go back & undo the moment when you hit delete

And be the best I should be,

And we would come together & create something unique

These are the………

These are the regrets of me, and how I was wrong to treat you,

Baby I want you, need you, long for you, crave you, & most of all I love you

-PoeticFlow