god…

god please speak to me.

show me you’re real.

show me you’re listening.

i need a sign.

god please help me.

why do i feel this way?

how do i get better?

i need guidance.

god why are you doing this?

they say you never give more than we can take,

you expect too much from me.

i can’t do this anymore.

god i’m ready to die.

if suicide is a sin i’m prepared to burn for eternity.

it can’t be more painful than this life.

i have made up my mind.

god i’d ask you to look over my loved ones,

but i cannot trust you.

not after how you looked over me.

i have lost all faith.