The first time you attempt suicide

They swarm

And platitudes fall from their lips like rain

Next time you feel this way…

Call me

Anytime day or night

I'll answer I'll always answer

The second time you attempt suicide

They never come

You never told them

You just fail

And go about your day

You didn't die 

Now there are bills to pay

And there are no marks to show

Never any marks to show

The sixth time you attempt suicide

You try

You dial

And later that day when you're on the floor

Unmarked

But so damaged

The failure of your latest attempt scattered around you

At that exact moment

There are five people

Each with a missed call and your name

Some have a message

Most don't

The ones who do

Wont know what's going on

No need to panic anyone

Wow you really suck at the whole death thing

At that exact moment 

There are two people who are supposed to call you back

Who answered the phone

And cut you off before you could speak

I'm busy right now

I'll call you back later

They'll forget

But you'll never forget

And even when you meet new people

Make new friends

Even as they gather things about you like puzzle pieces

You still know they're lying

That's the only thing you can trust

That they're lying

And when the day comes

The day that you really should have called someone

There will be no missed calls

There will be no conversation rain checks

There will be you

Finally sticking the landing

And there will be them

Offering platitudes

At a black coffin

And an empty cage