too late or just in time

suddenly, you can see how much time other people have left to live

but only as you close your lids

suddenly it is all clear

as your heart stops and the world disappears

heart breaking for your fiancé's impending suicide

your best friend's fall she won't survive

deaths from broken hearts

frowning old, falling apart

murder and misjudgment

looking the other way and falling forever

how come this much pain is possible

wanting to cry but you've already left your body

torn from your year ducts, lacking a release you fade to black in a desperate attempt to shut it off and out and slip in between the shadows

this world is so much easier in ignorance

better to be blind than to be all seeing

sometimes the lucky ones are the deaf because they can't hear the bombs drop

ending in silence instead of in screams

you are torn between returning with a warning and fleeing from the sorrow that surrounds your stillness

you turn away bowing that even if you wanted to

returning is no option

death comes slowly but only to those in anticipation

their lives may seem longer but it isn't living

counting down will get you no where but zero