Undeserving

Don't spend money on me that you need for other things.

I refuse to be the reason you can't afford something else.

Besides, as much as I'd love them, they're sure to get lost somehow--

by the courier on the way to my house,

by me as I lose sight of them while looking for a vase,

or by my roommate when they've gone dry and become clutter on her windowsill. Even with good navigation,

focus

and empathy,

I am not worthy of something so beautiful.

Send me any flower and I will scowl at it,

challenging it to see who can wither away quicker.

If you must send something, send chocolates.

Sweet sedatives to calm me in my broken state.

I'll add them to my stockpile,

and eat them while watching a movie that makes me cry.