Never the same

My vision blurs as I venture down the narrow, blank hallway.

Tears threaten to fall

They reach the brim of my eyelids but stay where they are..

I don't dare blink.

I take a left, a right

I follow the leader in front.

A door appears before me,

it reads "306"

I push the heavy door aside and step into the infirmary.

There you are.

Broken down, weak, tired, and helpless.

I can't do anything but look at you

My body feels frozen,

my eyes are locked on the machines you're hooked up to.

I blink

Regret fills me immediately.

Cold tears fall on my warm, red cheeks.

Flashbacks play through my head.

Laughter, beauty, normality..

All gone in the blink of an eye.

I never understood the importance of memories until now.

I take one step closer to your bed side and stare at you

More tears fall

I take another step

My heart breaks a little more

I take one more step until I am right near you

Your slow breathing calms me down.

I grab your cold hand and hold it

More tears hit my cheek

Right then

and there..

I knew you were gone

and that things would never be the same...

I've noticed that still to this day, I was never the same

after what had happened.