My Voice is Not My Voice

Too rough

Too deep

Too manly

For a girl

Not serious enough

When it needs to be

Too serious

When it shouldn't be

A laugh

That came from within

Before the many years of friendship

With too many friends with too many laughs

And now my laugh is no longer mine

It has been stolen

Forgotten

Replaced

And what of my narration

My attempt to sound as if I care

As if I know and understand

As if I want you to join my "campaign"

Too much I attempt to sound lighthearted

To sound excited

Or real

That instead everything only becomes worse

Fake

It is convoluted by my past

My voice is not my voice

But then again

I'm still trying to find it.