Gender

I don't have a gender.

To many people, that may seem like a strange thing to say.

"But you love dresses!"

"But you wear makeup and jewelry!"

"But you sew and cook and knit and clean and, and, and!

"You never seemed masculine at all!"

That's the thing.

I am not masculine.

I am not feminine.

I am a secret third thing.

I am

empathetic,

strange,

curious,

loving,

passionate,

divine.

Those all define me,

not my gender.

I may do feminine things,

enjoy dresses and makeup and jewelry,

enjoy cooking and sewing and knitting,

but

I also do masculine things,

enjoy suits, short hair, having a flat chest,

enjoy engineering, getting dirty, working with numbers.

Those do not show my gender

My gender does not exist

I exist

I am more than gender

Gender does not limit me,

define me,

relate to me,

or have any bearing on what I do.

Gender has no importance to me

And I can't feel it anyways

So why does it matter?

What matters is that I cook,

I knit,

I engineer,

I get dirty,

I sew,

I tangle with numbers

I love,

I am the caretaker and the taken care of

I am beyond gender

It does not matter to me anymore

I feel free.