3:44-6:03am

Right now, I'm a mixture of happy and angry. I want to feel pure joy flowing within my veins and commit that to memory, but it's a bit hard when you have angst disturbing any peace there is. A feeling of emptiness resides in me as well, but I guess it's an abyss of almost too much feeling and care that leaves me feeling irrelevant. I'm so confused as to why my life is contradictory. Perhaps this is why one shouldn't be up when the sun is in hiding: you learn things that are better left untouched.