When to open and close

Opening my heart to people has always been easy, Ive always loved to help people and see them smile, but at what cost? Sometimes, I don’t know when to close my heart, not everyone is as good as they portray themselves to be and there are moments where I have a hard time deciphering that. I’m naive at times, but I stay compassionate and loving but it has brought me more anguish than “love”. Still, I can’t seem to close it and that’s ok. Its easier to love than to carry around the bourdon of hate.

But there have been times, where the same person I thought I loved, the same person I cared for so much, just disappeared from my train of thought. From my whole existence in a blink of an eye. I had closed my heart to the thought of them and they became nothing. I felt peace knowing they were gone from my reality. I didn’t have to hate them or love them or miss them. They were just gone.