If I were to...

Only if I had the courage to call out their name,

But what was their name?

My words are slipping off the edge, incoherent.

Only if I could possibly see them,

But what did they look like?

Am I stuck on if?

Am I stuck on possibilities and statistics?

Is that why they left me?

Only if I could be normal, only if my thoughts would align with theirs,

If I were to throw myself away, everything I felt,

Only if I could, if I just could,

Would they love me then?