life is too long to forgive you

only if the sands of time

could slip down the

sides of the hourglass

a little faster

i would be able to forgive

to forget

to rush through healing in time

for the end,

a sprint towards happiness so i can die with no regrets.

but life is long,

grudges linger

and i have all the time in the world

to heal.

and if i get struck by a bus tomorrow

and die with my bitterness

will i regret not forgiving?

or will i be glad,

because maybe in death

i will finally realize

that my forgiveness is not deserved.

they may have my understanding

my pity

but never my forgiveness.

life is too long for that.