Depression is not

"Tragically beautiful"

It's exhausting

Feeling miserable

More often than not

And having no motivation

To do anything

Not to get out of bed

To get dressed

To clean your room

Or anything else

It's being plagued

By the awful thoughts

Of ending your life

Of everything

Not being worth it.

Anxiety is not

"Tragically beautiful"

It's the feeling you get

The second before

Your chair tips

But you don't feel it

For only a second

You feel it

Every waking second

That fear

In the pit of your stomach

Like a rock

And sooner or later

It will be too heavy

To carry.

Having both anxiety

And depression

Is not

"Tragically beautiful"

It's not having motivation

To get up

And go to school

But feeling afraid

Of what would happen

If you miss anything

The mess

Is making you anxious

But you just say

"I'll clean it tomorrow"

It's caring too much

But also

Not caring at all.

Don't romanticize anxiety

Or depression

Or any mental illness

Don't fake it, either

Because maybe

There's someone

Dying inside

Who's afraid to speak out

Because mental illnesses

Are so generalized

And romanticized

And pushed down

Into a tiny ball

Of something

That no one

Properly knows

Anything about

Because it was painted over

By people

Who decided that

They wanted attention

And thought

The best way to do it

Was to fake something

And in the process

Make it seem

Less horrible

Than it actually is.