Vulnerability

Joy pours out of me

as of late

It is raw and real

and unnerving

as I remember my arrival

to this place

as a stark contrast

Now I begin to digest

the absolute destruction

to one’s vulnerability

an absolute fucking psychopath

can have

I shiver as the joy pours out

shedding whatever remnants

remain of you

Rapid eye movements

brought on by my self

rewire pathways

and I am ungroomed

I taste saltwater

and I am laughing

but absolutely terrified

by this recycling of joy

being poured into me

then out of me

by the same hands

I have unknowingly memorized

in mesmerization