KODAK figured it out.

I am a puzzle person.

I believe jigsaw puzzles are

the most relaxing way to pass time.

I love the concept that

small, almost meaningless pieces

can fit together

to make a picture

and

create meaning.

My son also loves jigsaw puzzles.

we have three rules

for when you get stuck:

1) New side

2) New spot

3) New piece

I am a puzzling person.

(as the cliché goes)

My therapists have told me

they don’t know how I’m so

”balanced”

”put together”

”sane”

You see, I grew up surrounded by

chaos

imbalance

and

neglect

They told me people who grow up

in environments like mine

typically continue patterns of behavior

rather than actively disrupt them.

I am a puzzle of a person.

I believe our lives

are made of small pieces

put together

to create meaning.

However

my puzzle has massive gaps

and appears to be missing pieces.

I have searched for them

and followed our three rules

for the pieces I do have,

but parts remain empty

and the puzzle stays meaningless.

The world’s largest jigsaw puzzle

is made by KODAK

and contains 51,300 pieces.

But everyone knows:

all those pieces have a place

and contribute to the meaning.

As long as it’s done correctly,

there are no gaps.

If a puzzle cannot be completed,

despite a person’s best efforts:

Does the puzzle still have meaning?

Is the puzzle considered broken?

Should I keep trying?