Feelings I Cannot Yet Feel

I hope she's proud of me.

I also hope that one day she will learn to walk on her own.

But for now, I carry her.

I carry her feelings

Her traumas

Her goofiness and her excitement

The demons she was not old enough to fight

The pain she did not know how to feel

And that I just can't seem to put down

I feel her arms around my shoulders when I need her love

But I feel her unrest and need to walk on her own.

But for now, I carry her.

And some days,

She carries me.