losing myself

It is the feeling of numbness consuming your whole body, yet tears still stream from your eyes. It is the knot that pulls tighter within your belly and a lump stuck in your throat that brings unexplainable feeling. It is feeling while not feeling at all. Its the need to speak but the desire to left alone. Its sleeping to take a break from all the thoughts that circle in your head. Yet, when you wake up, your mind seems refreshed and ready to start the roller coaster all over again. its staying up late, draining your body physically just to be too tired to feel anything. just emptiness.