Cigarette

sometimes I fantasize

about smoking

cigarettes

to be able to take

one long drag

and that toxicity

to my body

will set something free

but not me

maybe this feeling

is something

we’re taught to

naturally exhale

without chemicals

what am I doing here

at least I know

I probably won’t do it

sucking down the hurt

isn’t art

Momma wouldn’t approve

of a girl with dirt

in her lungs and heart