i wish you knew.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to wake up every morning

and not think of you.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to think of you

and keep myself from crying.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to cry and cry and cry

knowing i won’t be able to ask you for comfort anymore.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to want your warm words to console me

only to be reminded that you no longer love me.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to want to love you

when you’ve hurt me this badly.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to have to heal from the pain you’ve caused me

and yet still worry about how you’re doing.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to stop myself from talking to you

because i miss you when i shouldn’t be.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to want you back in my life

when i lost myself from trying to keep you in my life.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to find peace with myself

when i lose sleep over you.

i wish you knew how hard it is

to have to go to bed

knowing that i’ll think of you when i wake up.