Let me out

hot tears of self hatred

they recoil in the presence of compliments,

but manifest when there's no one here to remind me that I am a human being with a life worth living

they laugh as they stream down my face

and hiss as they stain the pillowcase black and red

I can't do anything but let them wreak their havoc because I'm tired of holding them back

'let me die here

melt into nothing

not like anyone will even notice if I disappear one day and never come back'

so one day, I think

I let myself out