This battle, I will win!

This has all turned into a giant mess.

Months ago, I knew better however my selfishness and impulsivity took hold.

If I knew I could predict all of this and gain the knowledge I did, I wouldn’t have went back out.

Sadly enough, once again I needed this moment to learn yet another lesson.

I didn’t think my situations could possibly get worse, but…. they did.

The only difference, I know what I need to do, where I need to make change.

I know I can’t sit in the mess I’ve created, cause I know where it all leads.

I can use my past as a reference, I can use the knowledge, wisdom, experience and tools I have gained for my present and future to continue moving forward and to get back up.

I wish I could blame you, reality is, I can’t.

Today I can’t take my accountability and responsibility of where I went wrong.

Today I won’t ignore the signs of God and what he is trying to teach and show me.

Today I have support to lean into.

I NEED to utilize this before I slip again.

I wasn’t strong enough in the past to deal with what was truly inside, so I kept running back to you.

I didn’t want to face the hurt, pain, shame and guilt.

But today, I have everything I need to move forward and start to heal inside.

Goodbye old me and the demon inside.

This is going to be a battle I will win!!