Unwanted

she told me she had to write

a let of recommendation

for her friend

to adopt from China

in 1989

she had to leave out

that her friend was a lesbian

which was forbidden

meaning she was unsuitable

I wonder what was

more unwanted

a baby girl when

the biological parents

craved only sons

or the adoptive mother’s shame

for being gay

waiting for a child

that won’t care either way