Chasing the Feeling of Unwanted

Cut all ties to him, maybe I'll heal.

Heart strings slowly tear,

As my tears become a waterfall.

Soul shattering sobs sing my sorrow.

I don't think I'll survive my world collapsing.

Now I have to find a new dream.

Giving up a love I fought for.

The demons are winning,

Hope has abandoned me.

Even Love decided I wasn't enough for her touch.

Fate never thought to warn me.

Envy embraces me when I realize how easy this is for him.

Everyday I break all over again, and he just ignores my existence.

Living has become unbearable...

I have no choice though,

No matter how unwanted I am.

Giving up was never an option for me.

Of course, I'd do anything he'd ask...

Fear paralyzes me, knowing how deep my devotion dives.

Unable to cope, chasing a feeling,

No one can change my mind.

When he told me why he avoids me, I knew the truth.

Any hope I had was snuffed out,

Now I'm forcing myself to move on out of spite.

Teaching myself to be okay,

Even though I know I'll never be okay again.

Deep down inside, I'll always chase him and the feeling of unwanted.