TwitterName.rtf

I updated my Twitter name recently:

Alex is Writing Again.

I wanted it to say:

Alex is sad again

Alex doesn't recognize their own face

in photos anymore

Alex doesn't know if they ever knew

just what it is they look like.

I wanted it to say:

Alex feels like a salted slug

sometimes

Alex just wants to feel okay

again.

The only thing Alex knows anymore

is their own fucking name,

one they chose,

took for themself,

after hacking words

to pieces.

It's the only thing of Alex's

that feels like Alex

anymore.

Alex is Writing Again.

Or rather, they're trying to,

when they can unspool the words,

tangled like matted hair,

each sentence combed out,

fingers cramped around the brush.

The more creative they are,

the more the salt rains down,

but it's better than hours spent

staring into mirrors,

desperate for recognition.