Sink/Source

I'd be such a good girl for you,

making sure to cram and compartmentalize every piece of me

into whatever shape you'd prefer;

I've never known any better.

It's what I've always been told.

If I'm not here to make you happy,

then what is my purpose?

I've never known to take care of myself,

but I would take care of you in a heartbeat.

I don't know how to stop,

I don't know how to love correctly,

and I definitely don't know how to be loved.

If I keep giving,

what does it mean if you give back?

I think I'd feel nauseated knowing

you spent so much energy into me.

I'm not your sink, I'm the output source

and I'd never let it be the other way around.

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